I can't be held responsible she fell in love in the first place.

Sometimes I am not sure which directions I am facing. 
Sure, college, right track, bullshit.
But, what does that say about me? Because, sometimes, I am not sure who I am, what I am, what I stand for.
Sellout?
That is how I feel I am. Looking back to the Lakewood self, all of the things I said I would never do. Well, the list has dwindled down to just a few, so what does that mean? 
I don't know who I am.
I know what I like, and sometimes I think, heyoh, I resemble that, yeah.
But, it's all bullshit. That isn't me. That is a mainstream image that was created, and I think I can recreate.
Well, I can't.
I don't even know how to find myself. Can I Google that?