MegaBake

They always say that people end up not changing. Can this be true? Things I said when I was a teen, were they just something I said and thought at the time, or did I actually truly mean them, then and now. Sometimes I am not sure. I feel as if I have experienced personal and inner changes, yet. When things go wrong or I feel upset about an aspect of my life, I tend to turn back to them all. Does this mean that I want them? Or, is it just a temporary feel? I feel it is more temporary, yet they keep coming back. I never really saw myself as a settler. I wanted to be free, living on my own, in a tiny apartment in New York, above a building. Yet, here I am, gearing my life towards a husband in the suburbs. Does this mean that I truly don't want him? If I don't, do I let him go?